Reasons

"Every Now's a big surprise."



 

In the name of all great liars, I would like to admit that every sexual experience I've ever had has changed my life drastically. Every person that has entered my life has made an impact. Every song that has filtered through my ear drums has led me to dance. Every drug filtered into my blood has subdued me to bliss. Every film I've ever viewed never made my eyes even the least bit weary.

And every time I've time fallen in love, that love has slowly faded. These are all reasons to be weary of any life changing moment. Because all of life is both monumental and meaningless. The colors, shapes and sizes are in a constant change. 

Other People

Other people drive my life. I love underground rock done by Anton Newcomb and Matt Hollywood. I crave new movies by Shane Carruth. Anyone who tries to imitate Lennon or Reed can take all of the little dimes left in my pocket. Still, despite all my faults and unwillingness to conform, my life continues and thrives! Tomorrow may never know... 

 

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Oldman

My playwriting teacher first told me how amazing the film performances of Gary Oldman truly were. She threw in Daniel Day Lewis as his near equal, but looking at both actors in full there is truly only one master. In a film history class the same professor screened Sid and Nancy which not only indulged my punkish craving but fueled the filmmaking craze I was hooked on at the time. Looking back the first film I probably saw from him was The Fifth Element.

Zorg was such a villainous presence to a ten year old, but fifteen years later every scene is hilarious. Dracula remains to this day to be terrifyingly brilliant. Gary brings such an amazing human nature to all his rolls. The final scene of Dracula smooching the chick from Beetlejuice spurs a particular memory of me questing my father, "Why is she kissing that gross old man?" The Professional was the first time I was truly moved consciously by an Oldman performance and it remains my favorite. Although familiar I didn't realize he was the same actor from the other films that I had seen him in. His ability to transform his body contortions as well his accent is brilliant and his performance in True Romance is what got me completely hooked and fully aware of this range. I'm about to watch The Contender, which is one of the last films that I haven't seen in the Oldman film catalogue. Honestly I do not know what to expect from Gary playing a villainous Republican politician. I'm very curious as to why the population as a whole doesn't recognize Gary as the great actor that he is. His chameleon nature and lack of any noticeable facial features, such as his buddy Tim Roth's nose for example, surely allows him to roam the streets and screen with little paparazzi assiduity. As Gary gracefully ages his performances are becoming more internal, in turn showing his endless range as a faker. Whether or not the Academy recognizes Oldman's ability to internalize his emotions in turn leading to a long overdue Oscar is still up in the air. One thing is certain, Oldman is the best working actor in Hollywood and I anticipate every performance with glee.

Straight Up and Down

"We don't want you to be yourself you see, we want you to free your self."

 

 

 

I love you don't drag me down. Because when I'm with you I truly don't care if I'm living or I'm dying. You say that you are my very best friend, but you never can tell. I can make you believe. Hey Jude!

 



If You're Feeling Sinister

Gathering together to spiritually connect seems fugal in the sense that we all hold our own individual holy spirit. This is precisely why we get these sinister feelings at different times randomly throughout our lives. Waking up feeling sinister is an emotion to cherish. Belle and Sebastian relate this perfectly and melodically in "If You're Feeling Sinister". The sinister emotion is very childish in nature. All children have unruly thoughts and are typically unable to recognize the emotion and thus will act upon it. It likely stems from jealousy or perhaps social isolation. As adults we have learned how to filter out the emotion through various outlets. For example by listening to a jangly tune by a band that fills the empty space in your heart with a childish joy.