Not Dark Yet

"I still got the scars that the sun never healed."

And when I look at those blurry times I do so with pride. It isn't a lose state of pride. It isn't a lost state of fear and self loathing, but a blemished reality coaxed in love. The man I have become is strong enought to reach otherwise unreachable stars. 

Random plays come on like fearless players. Humanity has gone down the drain. She wrote me a letter so kind, but I don't care cause I'm totally blind. 

"Sometimes my burden is more than I can bear."

My prose will kindly tell you what is true, it isn't my will. I'm so dumb in reality that it doesn't even what matters that I'm trying to say. I'm lost and confused to a point where I have to acre of truth. 

How about you? 

Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games

Let's have outrageous parties that allow us to lose ourselves in the craze. Then maybe for a couple of moments our dizziness will die away. Expand on the fantasy of what is already a bogus trip. Nobody asked for this life. From the very beginning the choice was made for us. So why not just reverse the process and delve into a state of non existence, if only to say 'fuck you' to the creator. 

"Maybe we'll never die, I'll just keep growing younger with you and you'll grow younger too."

Stevie (Song for Stevie S.)

"Once you step into the scene that's when the whole thing blows." 

 

The defender of the underdogs is finally on track. Race away man, we all want you to thrive. Maybe you need to go miles away to be satisfied. People think flowers are made of plastic, and if they break there'll always be someone there to fix it. Your my inspiration buddy. Convincing us all it's okay to lay down on the pavement, without feeling the crass torture of the masses. Thank you with sincerity sir, but...

(You Better Love Me) Before I am Gone

"When I think about the good times and bad, of being so happy and sad."

It reminds me of all the wasted time quarreling. How it's all just an exercise in boredom. The anger is so pitiful, destroying any hope for a future or past. Enjoy the present like there is neither. Come the fuck on man, blow that harmonica harder. Blow it like it's a god damn call to the spirits. Spirits above and below. Spirits long gone who have the pleasure of knowing what lies ahead and regret what has come before. 

"Who are you trying to save?"

Angel in Heaven, Angels in Hell

"Feels like I'm just avoiding the truth."

There must be two sides to everything. Upon this realization of being self aware a duality was born. It can seem like a chore to be a part of this world. That's why heaven and hell are filled with both the wicked and the good. Earth is just a battle ground, constant war for the chance to to end up in whatever paradise wants them more. 

 "It makes me want to crawl back in my shell."

El Pasado Es Un Animal Grotesco

"Project your fears onto me, I need to view them."

This is my favorite scene, where the cruelty is so predictable. Let's ravage our bodies to the pint where we've somehow transformed into alterations cresting coldly on the feeding apocalypse. Break the mold of beauty and see the terror as a betrayal that crowds the rejection. Promise that I'll be made to feel like a criminal and the passion will spurn from the electric secrets of sexuality. The past is a grotesque beast, demeaning and spiteful, with fangs of never ending proportion and depth. Spinning in circles is all we do, try and reverse, it'll work. hammer the lengthy prose into a fire burning with cold air below. Tyrant, please leave me at peace in my own little corner of the world. There I feel safe as the moon becomes clear and my own stars appear. Help me please I'm not this dreary. help now before I' lost in this wormhole of money and cost. Sirens begin to blare in my already tender ears, make it stop I say, but you cannot. Night will last for days, so learn how play. 

"But at least I author my own disaster."

Cause when the happening comes it'll be to late. They will stop the spinning leaving you square, baking in the sum. Music they'll play will blow you away, off the earth and onto their ship. No worries bro' they have games. Hold your breathe if you want to see, the toys they got are electric. All you need to do is say 'hello' and ask kindly which way to go.