Congratulation

The best moments in life is when there is a change in the right direction. The fear of during that change is anxiety driven, sure. Once that peak is over you find yourself fall into this few minutes of bliss. This is better than drug. The brain has become so translucent to the world around you find so much endorphin driven distraction nothing under the sun matters. It is all just a somber background in a life that used to be filled with distraction. Eventually that feeling will rust into a sense of dis morphia.

"Out with a whimper, it's not a blaze of glory."

You do need to realize that falling back into that state of contempt is complete inhalation of what you have built. Keep in mind that there is more to life than the than the good feelings. So many people hide under the guise of depression not realizing that most of life is a bit of a downer. Unless you conquer the down there is no way to truly enjoy the uppers. Be more conscious of times when you feel really good even if there is nothing good happening.

"And lay down the quilt upon the lawn, spread my arms and soak up congratulations."

Sorry Charlie

It will be okay because I say so. Don’t worry about the doubts you used to have. You might think there is no future, but there is. You don’t really have a choice in the matter. It’s a cerebral feeling, yet one you need to accept. I know you remember your youth and expected better. I know it is not fair what happened to you. It might be time to get over that. There is so much ahead and so much behind that the best way to act is with no emotions but love. Keep it up or you will decide to fail. And in failure you are not a failure, but a long intricate string of those who tried and weren't successful. Shatter those desires of the past and realize what is important. Stand alone and be proud. Do not let your younger self control the future promise of what you have to offer. There is more to life than just morose thoughts and self destruction.

“Hold on to those you thought were your love ones. They’ll be the ones you missed.”

That past keeps lingering on in a way that will never go away. There will always be those crispy intellects who decide to invade once again. Become who you were born to be. Let your beard grow and don’t disinfect the intellect you have to offer to the world. Let all that is pain slip away and let the man child unleash itself on the world. Give all the love you can before it is too late. Your biggest enemy is yourself. New experience will guide you. Stop being so bored and create exuberance into your life. 

Star Power III

There is this perpetual feeling that keeps lingering. It makes me wish I would have done more in my life until now. This life has been wasted in a way that is kind of sad. No production and little result. A feeling of self doubt stutters up to the forefront. There is a helplessness in feeling this dross. Seeing all those faces that feel the same. Maybe they don’t realize that they are completely oblivious to their own features. We are all just a chaotic mess of spilled milk. But there is that little shred of hope lingering in the subconscious. Every dream we have is like a cool breath of oxygen. Oh wow it feels so good to get a grasp. The problems never become anything but distilled liquor in our frontal lobe. So please tell me my friends.

“What are we good for? If we can’t make it?”