Congratulation

The best moments in life is when there is a change in the right direction. The fear of during that change is anxiety driven, sure. Once that peak is over you find yourself fall into this few minutes of bliss. This is better than drug. The brain has become so translucent to the world around you find so much endorphin driven distraction nothing under the sun matters. It is all just a somber background in a life that used to be filled with distraction. Eventually that feeling will rust into a sense of dis morphia.

"Out with a whimper, it's not a blaze of glory."

You do need to realize that falling back into that state of contempt is complete inhalation of what you have built. Keep in mind that there is more to life than the than the good feelings. So many people hide under the guise of depression not realizing that most of life is a bit of a downer. Unless you conquer the down there is no way to truly enjoy the uppers. Be more conscious of times when you feel really good even if there is nothing good happening.

"And lay down the quilt upon the lawn, spread my arms and soak up congratulations."