Sorry Charlie

It will be okay because I say so. Don’t worry about the doubts you used to have. You might think there is no future, but there is. You don’t really have a choice in the matter. It’s a cerebral feeling, yet one you need to accept. I know you remember your youth and expected better. I know it is not fair what happened to you. It might be time to get over that. There is so much ahead and so much behind that the best way to act is with no emotions but love. Keep it up or you will decide to fail. And in failure you are not a failure, but a long intricate string of those who tried and weren't successful. Shatter those desires of the past and realize what is important. Stand alone and be proud. Do not let your younger self control the future promise of what you have to offer. There is more to life than just morose thoughts and self destruction.

“Hold on to those you thought were your love ones. They’ll be the ones you missed.”

That past keeps lingering on in a way that will never go away. There will always be those crispy intellects who decide to invade once again. Become who you were born to be. Let your beard grow and don’t disinfect the intellect you have to offer to the world. Let all that is pain slip away and let the man child unleash itself on the world. Give all the love you can before it is too late. Your biggest enemy is yourself. New experience will guide you. Stop being so bored and create exuberance into your life.